Luke 24:13-35
Jesus teaches us that love begins by joining someone on their journey. In the Incarnation, Jesus joins us on our journey. On the way to Emmaus, Jesus joins the disciples. He shows up. Walks with them. Listens to them. Talks with them. Shares a meal with them. Love starts with presence. This might mean opening ourselves to someone else’s pain as Jesus did on the journey to Emmaus. To listen to someone share their pain and grief is holy work.
Shauna Niequist writes, “Many of the most sacred moments of my life, the ones in which I feel God’s presence most profoundly, when I feel the goodness of the world, all take place in the presence of people. Something extraordinary happens when we slow down, open our homes or enter into another home, look into one another’s faces, and listen to one another’s stories.”
When I read this, I thought about our first Gathering Church homegroup. They listened to our story during our first years here in Durham. They walked with us and held us during our struggle with infertility. I thought about how we looked into one another’s eyes and hearts and loved each other and said things like, “yes… me too… you are so brave... thank you” and at times we all sat in silence.
As many of you know, Curt and I left Durham for a few years, but thankfully we found our way back to The Gathering Church. Two weeks after we moved back to Durham, I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and a panic disorder. It was terrifying! I felt like I was spinning out of control most days, and I wasn’t sure where God was in the chaos. I immediately drew a line in the sand with my anxiety on one side and God on the other. I didn’t want to bring my anxiety to God because I was afraid of disappointment. What if I couldn’t pray my way out of it? What if anxiety never left? What if this was the new normal? I didn’t want to be disappointed in God for the constant feeling of panic in my life.
Thankfully one of our previous home group buddies made her way back into my life. She joined me at my table; quite literally we shared a meal together. And I immediately remembered one night during homegroup this friend opened her journal and bravely shared her own struggle with anxiety and panic and fear. I felt safer and a little less dizzy. We started walking together again, and it gave me courage. It made me slowly start to erase the line I had drawn in the sand. I experienced God through her faithful presence. My anxiety wasn’t healed, but, like the disciples, my eyes were opened to God’s presence as I walked on my own Emmaus road.
Remember, sometimes God keeps promises through us, through simple and beautiful acts of being with one another. Who will you walk with, listen to, or share a meal with this Advent season?